I'll be fine..perhaps...

Everything I see
Becomes a part of me
Everything I feel
Everything so real
So hard I try
These tears not to cry
Yet the fact remains so true
That I'm not meant to be without you
So no matter how many times I say
"I'll be fine", this pain still does find a way
To enter my mind, body and soul
Reminders of how once I was a whole
Pieces of me scattered in the sun
It must be ended, for once it was begun ... <3 <3 <3

My Drenched Dreams ...

Beleaguered by the demons
Of insurgent desires,
Bemoaning the fate
In a discordant choir

Dripping from the showers
Of false fabrications
Soaked in the misery
Of ambiguous convictions

Drenched Dreams!
My drenched Dreams!
Weary by the wanderings
On long & windy roads
Drained by carrying
The unbearable loads

Scorched by the sun
Heading the journey’s end
Parched lips yearn,
Eyes thirst the end:
End of the journey
And end of pain
Ending the life
The dreams remain…


Thirsty Dreams!
Killer Dreams!
My drenched Dreams!

Silences...

Sometimes,
silences are the best buddies,
when the heart breaks without noises
and heartbeats have no voices,
while left alone in dark alleys,
and the shadows turn their face,
and walk away.

Sometimes,
the silences are the ‘other’door ,
of the mind..;
to sneakout and run away,
from the numbing gloominess of a lost day..
When stumble over ,
the darkness clogged steps,
unable to discern the paths,
while searching,
frantically for density,
inside the emptiness of air,
some times,
silences are the best ropes,
to hang on,
clinging ,
to the roofs of an opaque life..

In the world of dingy twilights,
where you,me and we become one,
without substance of an identity,
where faces look inanimate,
with shadowy outlines,
and shades of black and white hues,
where contours appear as,
mixture of ridges and furrows ,
sometimes,
Silences are the best pals..
When one is lost,
in tracks with undefined goals,
and waves with unknown depths,
and when time stagnate and clot,
in bluish red veins of horizons,
when threads of hopes,
make tangled knots ,
with dreams,love and pain,
and life fall in the trap of expectations,
trying to escape vainly,
wounded and bleeding
sometimes,
Silences are the best friends..

A different waltz ...

I waltz,
With my shadow,
When they are long,
To hold my hand;
Twilight,
Into the night.

I dance to the whispers
Of wind passing by.
I hum notes of joy,
For having you close by.

Twilight ends,
And comes a time,
When I part with you again,
Silently, into the night.

Not yet Forgiven...

Not letting go the pain,
Not letting go the memories..
Letting go my pride..
I still in my words hide..
The hurt YOU gave me,
Forever to cherish!

not forcing you to listen..
not even wanting you..
i am still surviving
n will remain without dieing...

You may forgive me dear
Your forgiveness on the falling out
That all the more endears,
When we fall out with those we love
And kiss again with tears.................

Toke Bhalobashi. . .

JANI NA AMI KE ,KI AMAR PORICHOY
JANI NA KI CHAI, AMI KI AMAR HRIDOYER BASANA
JODI BOLI HOYTO TOR MONTA
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

MONE HOY PARBO NA TOR KOTHA BOLTE
TABU TOR SOPNATA AJO HRIDOY JURE
NISOBDE BHALOBESE JETE PARBO
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

SATA KOSTO TOR SATHE THAKE PARI
KATATE PARI SATA JANTRONI RAAT
MONE BOLE BHALO TOKEIII BASI
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

SHUDHU BHUJE NIS EI CHELETA EIROKOM
SAMAY PELE ASIS ER KACHE
KATATE PARIS SOMAY ER PACHE
PARLE BHUJE NIS "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

Aamar pagli. . . :')

pagli aj tor kotha bar bar mone porche...
sokal bela ghum theke uthei tor nam dekhlam
khoborer kagojer patay..
tor namer ekta company'r add diye-chilo..

adbhut na.....
tui amai bhulte chas...
kintu ami toke bhulte parbo na...
sei adhikar ki nei amar?

naki etao tor dustumi...
chere diyeo amake sasti diye jabi..
tobe toke bhalo bashle sasti pabo keno?
tui je oi cheletakeo bhalo bashli?
sasti pabina tar...?

pagli tor kotha mone kore kadbo na..
na chokh theke jol felina kokhnoi....
pourush bojay rakhte hobe na..
pagli...ekta din dibi,
jedin purshke sorie sudhu-
manusher moto kadbo...

jani ar tui kichui dibi na..
aj tor notun golpo suru korar din..
aj tor biye...
tai subho bibaho janalam toke!!