Saturday, October 18, 2008

loved one...

funny thy emotions be
funny sound the words u said
funny be thy better half
swear on her to what i say:
if you get another one
will she be your loved one
will not memories sublime
will u remember the chime?
I can tell you many ways
to become her loved grace.
but will then your loving be
better than will ever be...

what you did to me..

I never believed that you can be my number one.
I always knew that you will be gone.
Because of you I don't believe in love.
Look all this what you have done.

Somebody tells me why nobody cares.?!
Why this life cause so more tears.
I trusted you, but look what you did.
Now somebody tells me what I need.

I loved you so lot, but that was in wane.
Because all what you gave me, was so more pain.
I opened my heart to you and then I saw something new.
That painful thing was your soul.
Your perfect heart was totally could.

Somebody tell me why nobody cares.
Why this life cause so more tears.
I trusted you, but look what you did.
Now somebody tells me what I need.
Why being with you means sou many tears!?!

Ritual of Death...

Amidst the never-ending greens
Stands a dull dry tree
Life-less and leaf-less
Full of sorrow is he

The blue above him
Overlooked and took pity
And busied himself
To write this ditty

No words did he find
To express his state
Wondered he a lot
Whats written in his fate

Just what he can write
For this symbol of death
Shedding away life
With his every breath

So he gave it away
For me to try a write
'Ritual of Death'
I labeled this sight...

Sunday, September 21, 2008


I shall die soon, i know

this thing is in my blood.

It will not let me go

it saps my cell for food...

It soaks my night in sweat

and breaks my days in pain

No hand or drug can treat

these limbs for love or gain..

Love, was the first strange cause

that bred grief in its seed

And gain knew its own laws

to fix its place and breed..

He whom i love, thank God

won't speak hope or cure

It would not do me good

he sees that; i am sure..

He knows what i have read

and will not bring me lies

He sees that i am dead

i read it in his eyes...

How am i to go on

how will i bear this taste...

My throat cased in white spawn

these hands that shake and waste..

Stay by my steel ward bed

and hold me where i lay

Hope you'll love me when i'm dead..

And not let me die....


Sunday, May 25, 2008

m doomed!

things have seemed quite unstable ever since results have come ...
feels quirky at times how one result can change the destiny and the profile of a person...
5yrs back being a 70%scorer was a boast able experience...but today thanks to the unprecedented competition that has followed has made such a huge impact that now a 80% means to have a terrible score
i can only imagine what it must have been for those scoring nething below that score..
have heart people
i mean even ashok ganguly wouldn t have scored a 90..damn!!!!
he suxx n so does his strategies!!!!!!


its been a boring Sunday morning..its 2.26pm right now...
well..dunno what i wanna write down today but it seems like a new realisation...about my life my people..
which brings em to my boards results...
i know it wasn't that good...
could have done so much well..
but that's the point..its been done already and it cannot be turned down n changed..
people have been calling up n down as if am dead or something..
i mean its so funny...
hoe much can a boards result matter...
n d reactions r even more erratic in nature..!
everyone grumbled dat i got 74 in eng no1 appreciated d fact that i got a 96 in
which was like really tough...
coz..i am supposed to bring in my 90s just coz m dis so called street smart English speaking bitch or something...
its really funny...
i know i deserve more...n m trying my best to get it re-evaluated but that's like a different [point altogether...
people have presented such perceptions about me that makes me shiver utmost down my spine..
come on guys..
gimme a chance!!!!!
peace out!

Thursday, May 22, 2008

do u remember...

Don’t let your past bring you down,
don’t let it bring a frown,
live in the present,
live life to the fullest,
don’t let anyone tell you wrong ,
live it on your own terms,
at your own pace,
because as soon as you know it ,
it will pass before your eyes.
Do you remember the times we laughed,
the times we cried,
the times tried to say goodbye,
or even the times we had said hello.
Do you remember those smiles
that came on your face,
a giggle which made a world a difference,
a tear that made me a whole lot depressed,
do you remember the times
we fought over the pointless arguments that we got to,
over the jealousy that we held,
over the frustration that needed to be let out...
Don’t forget those times we had,
even through the bad and good,
we made it through. . .

my feelings for u...

I still have feelings for you.
Yes it's true.
All wounds heal in time.
But not mine.
I'm falling for you,
and while my heart says go;
My brain says no.
What should I do?
If I may still love you.
I can't keep living this lie!
And I can't just say goodbye!
Life is rough.
And love is tough.
So we better get use to it now,
but how?
God must be really clever.
Because I want to be with you forever.
But I've done so much wrong.
And this isn't like a love song;
Where there is always a happy ending.
But for you I am always bending.
Jealousy and rage seem to be locked away in a cage.
So maybe you have changed.
But are your feelings rearranged?
Even so; I can't let go.
So I will be holding on for eternity.
If that's what it takes to bring you back to me. love

My feelings mean nothing at all,
They will be lost as time goes by.
It's hard to say what I feel
But I know
I can’t hide from these feelings all the time.
It’s hard to say I miss you
But you burnt a hole right through my heart
N I never thought you'd make me break me,
You’re breaking apart this love in my heart,
I wish I could rewind everything back to the start

Saturday, March 29, 2008

my best poem!!!!!--stone by stone..

Stone by Stone
I have a wall you cannot see
Because it's deep inside of me
It blocks my heart on every side
And helps emotions there to hide
You can't reach in
I can't reach out
You wonder what it's all about
The wall I built that you can't see
Results from insecurity
Each time my tender heart was hurt
The scars within grew worse and worse
So stone by stoneI built a wall
That's now so thick it will not fall
Please understand that its not you
Continue trying to break through
I want show much to show myself
And love from you will really help
So bit by bitChip at my wall
Til stone by stone, it starts to fall
Iknow the process will be slow
It's never easy to let go
Of hurts and failures long in grounded
Upon ones heart from years of pain
I'm so afraid
To let you in
I know I might get hurt again
I try so hard to break the wall
But I seem to get nowhere at all
For stone upon each stone ive attacked
And left between them not a crack
The only way
To make it fall is in imperfections in the wall
I did the best I could to build
A perfect wall but there are still
A few small flaws which are the key
To breaking through the wall to me
Please use each flaw
To cause a crack
To knock a stone off of the stack
For just as stone by stone was laid
With every hurt and every pain
So stone by stone the wall will break
As love replaces every ache
Please be the one who cares enough
To find the flaws no matter what. . .

Thursday, March 13, 2008

The beginning and the end,
Of my life and its height,
My love and fright,
Of loss and failure,
Compares none whatsoever,
To the miracle never occured,
The tale never told,
The truth never spoken,
Of what lied deep in my fate!
The rise and fall,
Of my emotions and agony,
MY spirit and melody,
Of my hate and luck,
Proved no love,
Never spoke the words,
Never flew the sparks,
Long dead for my small world!

in oblivion...

Left undone is the solemn pledge,
To see myself with you, wither with time.
And live one day,
the dreams that we wove,
With your hands in mine.
Left undone, is my home
Even before it lived its first breath,
To stand under this blue sky,
With a solitary mortal to survive
Left undone is me, to stand alone
And live this life in parallel,
Yet being far from you,
for a lifetime,
When you let go of my hand,
into oblivion....

Tuesday, March 11, 2008


Alone underneath the midnight sky
I lift my face to the stars
And imagine each one a kiss
Sent from you to taste my lips
Alone underneath the midnight sky
I lift my hands toward the moon
And imagine its light as heat
Sent from you to keep me warm
Alone underneath the midnight sky
I close my eyes to feel the wind
and imagine its gentle touch
Sent from you to caress my body
Alone underneath the midnight sky
I feel your arms wrapped around me
And imagine a whisper in the silence
Sent from you to tell me I’m not alone
though..its a lie....

Sunday, March 9, 2008

a poem for u....

I write a poem ... for you today... to get a place...
in your heart ...
for ever...
A poem ...
that could tell you ...
my love for you...
I write my poem ...
with emotion and affection...for you ...
to understand ...
my deep thoughts ...
for you ...
A poem ...
to love ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its soul...
A poem ...
to enjoy ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its happiness ...

A poem ...
to think ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its way of life ...
A poem ...
to learn ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its content...
A poem ...
to sing ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its melody ...
A poem ...
to cry ...
and a poem ...
to understand ...
its sorrow...

There are poems ...
I have written ...
but this is specially for you ...The poem ...
could tell you ...
how important you are ...
for me ...There are words ...
comes out freely ...
from my mind ...
to write poem ...
but there are ...
no words ...
to find my love ...
for you...
Those words ...
can not missed ...
as I miss ...
your love today...
Let me ...
have all those words ...
put in to my heart ...
and say ...
I love ...
to write ...
a love poem ...

for you ....

Friday, February 22, 2008

to love u more.....

To Love You More...
Take me back ...
in the arms i love...Need me ...
like you did before...Touch me ...
once again...
And remember ...
when...There was ...
no one ...
that you wanted ...


Thursday, February 14, 2008


If there is a future there is time for mending-
Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-
If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.
If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-
When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.
Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-
If there is time for praying there is time for healing.
So if through your window there is a new day breaking-
Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,
If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-
There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.