P.S I FORGIVE YOU...

I'm sorry for what I did to you
All I said, it wasn't true
I crushed you and you never deserved
What it was that you heard

You were the first one I fell for
I loved you then, but there is more
YOU understood me
Through that time
But when I broke your heart you lied

You told me it was all pretend
From the beginning to the end
But I knew it wasn't true
Because, I knew the REAL you

Like me, you were misunderstood
I planned to tell you, but before I could
You disapeared, you moved away
And still, to this very day
I dream on meeting you again
One more time so I can say
Just three words, only three
Words that will set me free

Nothing very complicted
Now here they are
Plainly stated
I want you to know, no matter what we've been through
I want you to know.............
I forgive you!!

loved one...

funny thy emotions be
funny sound the words u said
funny be thy better half
swear on her to what i say:
if you get another one
will she be your loved one
will not memories sublime
will u remember the chime?
I can tell you many ways
to become her loved grace.
but will then your loving be
better than will ever be...

what you did to me..

I never believed that you can be my number one.
I always knew that you will be gone.
Because of you I don't believe in love.
Look all this what you have done.

Somebody tells me why nobody cares.?!
Why this life cause so more tears.
I trusted you, but look what you did.
Now somebody tells me what I need.

I loved you so lot, but that was in wane.
Because all what you gave me, was so more pain.
I opened my heart to you and then I saw something new.
That painful thing was your soul.
Your perfect heart was totally could.

Somebody tell me why nobody cares.
Why this life cause so more tears.
I trusted you, but look what you did.
Now somebody tells me what I need.
Why being with you means sou many tears!?!

Ritual of Death...

Amidst the never-ending greens
Stands a dull dry tree
Life-less and leaf-less
Full of sorrow is he

The blue above him
Overlooked and took pity
And busied himself
To write this ditty

No words did he find
To express his state
Wondered he a lot
Whats written in his fate

Just what he can write
For this symbol of death
Shedding away life
With his every breath

So he gave it away
For me to try a write
'Ritual of Death'
I labeled this sight...

IN YOUR MEMORIES...

I shall die soon, i know

this thing is in my blood.

It will not let me go

it saps my cell for food...

It soaks my night in sweat

and breaks my days in pain

No hand or drug can treat

these limbs for love or gain..

Love, was the first strange cause

that bred grief in its seed

And gain knew its own laws

to fix its place and breed..

He whom i love, thank God

won't speak hope or cure

It would not do me good

he sees that; i am sure..

He knows what i have read

and will not bring me lies

He sees that i am dead

i read it in his eyes...

How am i to go on

how will i bear this taste...

My throat cased in white spawn

these hands that shake and waste..

Stay by my steel ward bed

and hold me where i lay

Hope you'll love me when i'm dead..

And not let me die....

IN YOUR MEMORIES....

m doomed!

things have seemed quite unstable ever since results have come ...
feels quirky at times how one result can change the destiny and the profile of a person...
5yrs back being a 70%scorer was a boast able experience...but today thanks to the unprecedented competition that has followed has made such a huge impact that now a 80% means to have a terrible score
i can only imagine what it must have been for those scoring nething below that score..
have heart people
i mean even ashok ganguly wouldn t have scored a 90..damn!!!!
he suxx n so does his strategies!!!!!!

sunday..2.32pm

well
its been a boring Sunday morning..its 2.26pm right now...
well..dunno what i wanna write down today but it seems like a new realisation...about my life my people..
which brings em to my boards results...
i know it wasn't that good...
could have done so much well..
but that's the point..its been done already and it cannot be turned down n changed..
people have been calling up n down as if am dead or something..
i mean its so funny...
hoe much can a boards result matter...
n d reactions r even more erratic in nature..!
everyone grumbled dat i got 74 in eng no1 appreciated d fact that i got a 96 in pol.sc....
which was like really tough...
coz..i am supposed to bring in my 90s just coz m dis so called street smart English speaking bitch or something...
its really funny...
i know i deserve more...n m trying my best to get it re-evaluated but that's like a different [point altogether...
people have presented such perceptions about me that makes me shiver utmost down my spine..
come on guys..
gimme a chance!!!!!
peace out!