I'll be fine..perhaps...

Everything I see
Becomes a part of me
Everything I feel
Everything so real
So hard I try
These tears not to cry
Yet the fact remains so true
That I'm not meant to be without you
So no matter how many times I say
"I'll be fine", this pain still does find a way
To enter my mind, body and soul
Reminders of how once I was a whole
Pieces of me scattered in the sun
It must be ended, for once it was begun ... <3 <3 <3

My Drenched Dreams ...

Beleaguered by the demons
Of insurgent desires,
Bemoaning the fate
In a discordant choir

Dripping from the showers
Of false fabrications
Soaked in the misery
Of ambiguous convictions

Drenched Dreams!
My drenched Dreams!
Weary by the wanderings
On long & windy roads
Drained by carrying
The unbearable loads

Scorched by the sun
Heading the journey’s end
Parched lips yearn,
Eyes thirst the end:
End of the journey
And end of pain
Ending the life
The dreams remain…


Thirsty Dreams!
Killer Dreams!
My drenched Dreams!

Silences...

Sometimes,
silences are the best buddies,
when the heart breaks without noises
and heartbeats have no voices,
while left alone in dark alleys,
and the shadows turn their face,
and walk away.

Sometimes,
the silences are the ‘other’door ,
of the mind..;
to sneakout and run away,
from the numbing gloominess of a lost day..
When stumble over ,
the darkness clogged steps,
unable to discern the paths,
while searching,
frantically for density,
inside the emptiness of air,
some times,
silences are the best ropes,
to hang on,
clinging ,
to the roofs of an opaque life..

In the world of dingy twilights,
where you,me and we become one,
without substance of an identity,
where faces look inanimate,
with shadowy outlines,
and shades of black and white hues,
where contours appear as,
mixture of ridges and furrows ,
sometimes,
Silences are the best pals..
When one is lost,
in tracks with undefined goals,
and waves with unknown depths,
and when time stagnate and clot,
in bluish red veins of horizons,
when threads of hopes,
make tangled knots ,
with dreams,love and pain,
and life fall in the trap of expectations,
trying to escape vainly,
wounded and bleeding
sometimes,
Silences are the best friends..

A different waltz ...

I waltz,
With my shadow,
When they are long,
To hold my hand;
Twilight,
Into the night.

I dance to the whispers
Of wind passing by.
I hum notes of joy,
For having you close by.

Twilight ends,
And comes a time,
When I part with you again,
Silently, into the night.

Not yet Forgiven...

Not letting go the pain,
Not letting go the memories..
Letting go my pride..
I still in my words hide..
The hurt YOU gave me,
Forever to cherish!

not forcing you to listen..
not even wanting you..
i am still surviving
n will remain without dieing...

You may forgive me dear
Your forgiveness on the falling out
That all the more endears,
When we fall out with those we love
And kiss again with tears.................

Toke Bhalobashi. . .

JANI NA AMI KE ,KI AMAR PORICHOY
JANI NA KI CHAI, AMI KI AMAR HRIDOYER BASANA
JODI BOLI HOYTO TOR MONTA
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

MONE HOY PARBO NA TOR KOTHA BOLTE
TABU TOR SOPNATA AJO HRIDOY JURE
NISOBDE BHALOBESE JETE PARBO
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

SATA KOSTO TOR SATHE THAKE PARI
KATATE PARI SATA JANTRONI RAAT
MONE BOLE BHALO TOKEIII BASI
TABU BOLTE PARBO NA "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

SHUDHU BHUJE NIS EI CHELETA EIROKOM
SAMAY PELE ASIS ER KACHE
KATATE PARIS SOMAY ER PACHE
PARLE BHUJE NIS "TOKE BHALOBASI"..........

Aamar pagli. . . :')

pagli aj tor kotha bar bar mone porche...
sokal bela ghum theke uthei tor nam dekhlam
khoborer kagojer patay..
tor namer ekta company'r add diye-chilo..

adbhut na.....
tui amai bhulte chas...
kintu ami toke bhulte parbo na...
sei adhikar ki nei amar?

naki etao tor dustumi...
chere diyeo amake sasti diye jabi..
tobe toke bhalo bashle sasti pabo keno?
tui je oi cheletakeo bhalo bashli?
sasti pabina tar...?

pagli tor kotha mone kore kadbo na..
na chokh theke jol felina kokhnoi....
pourush bojay rakhte hobe na..
pagli...ekta din dibi,
jedin purshke sorie sudhu-
manusher moto kadbo...

jani ar tui kichui dibi na..
aj tor notun golpo suru korar din..
aj tor biye...
tai subho bibaho janalam toke!!

Jeebon theke Jeeboney. . .

pakhi hoye ure chole somoy.
or ekta ekta paloke,
ekta ekta jibon.

nodi hoye boye jay jibon.
or ekta ekta srotey,
ekta ekta khushi.

taara hoye futey othe khushi.
or bindu bindu aaloy,
bindu bindu dukkho.

oshroo hoye jhore pore dukkho.
or fonta fonta jole,
onek khani jibon.. .

My QUOTES Collection Part I

What is this life if full of care; we have no time to stand and stare.

Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself.

Strength lies in differences, not in similarities.

Never be afraid to do something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark; professionals built the titanic.

We all have ability. The difference is how we use it.

We must overcome the notion that we must be regular... it robs you of the chance to be extraordinary and leads you to the mediocre.

You're the only one who can make the difference. Whatever your dream is, go for it. ..but first...go to sleep for a while~

I try to avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.

We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.

When life knocks you down, try to land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up. Let your reason get you back up.

When walking through the "valley of shadows," remember, a shadow is cast by a Light.

All of us failed to match our dreams of perfection. So I rate us on the basis of our splendid failure to do the impossible.

I do not try to dance better than anyone else. I only try to dance better than myself.

Before everything else; getting ready is the secret of success.

Don't find fault. Find a remedy.

Good, better, best; never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best.

Quotes Close to my Heart. . .

remember me..just once in a while...

today my heart is filled with so many things...so many people involved..so many stories...so many feelings..
recently enough..i am coming across people who have transformed themselves..some for the better...most for the worse...and i nomore see the person i knew. it makes me feel exasperated.. lonely and scared. it worsens when i wake up at 2 am in the night...all sweaty..just out of a nightmare where i see poeple..so many fo them all black and slimy...i can see light but not its source and i find myself enveloping into the mist..bit by bit..fold by fold.
its so strange..how relations change..from good..to better..and then to worse!


hmm...i feel d best way to teel u wat i feel..i'll be me..:) ...n write u this....

remember me when i am gone away
gone far away in the silent land
when you can no more hold my hand
nor i half turn to go..yet turning stay..
remember me when no more day by day
you tell me of the future that you care
only remember me..u understand..
it will be too late to counsel then or pray
yet if you should forget me for a while
and afterwards remember..do not grieve
better by far you should forget and smile
than remember me and cry...

P.S I FORGIVE YOU...

I'm sorry for what I did to you
All I said, it wasn't true
I crushed you and you never deserved
What it was that you heard

You were the first one I fell for
I loved you then, but there is more
YOU understood me
Through that time
But when I broke your heart you lied

You told me it was all pretend
From the beginning to the end
But I knew it wasn't true
Because, I knew the REAL you

Like me, you were misunderstood
I planned to tell you, but before I could
You disapeared, you moved away
And still, to this very day
I dream on meeting you again
One more time so I can say
Just three words, only three
Words that will set me free

Nothing very complicted
Now here they are
Plainly stated
I want you to know, no matter what we've been through
I want you to know.............
I forgive you!!